/// 1:39 AM
very sad.
if only someone can understand this shit that i am feeling.
i am lying to myself.
trying hard to suppress my thoughts.
but when i saw it,
i can't forget but to get pricked by it.
she doesn't know at all.
she doesn't notice.
she didn't know about it
but i am tortured by it
i dunno what am i feeling.
maybe i am just worried that we will begin to drift apart as just purely friends.
or maybe there is a deeper meaning to it.
but one thing i know.
she feels unhappy.
and i feel worse... much worse....