if only someone can understand this shit that i am feeling.
i am lying to myself.
trying hard to suppress my thoughts.
but when i saw it,
i can't forget but to get pricked by it.
she doesn't know at all.
she doesn't notice.
she didn't know about it
but i am tortured by it
i dunno what am i feeling.
maybe i am just worried that we will begin to drift apart as just purely friends.
or maybe there is a deeper meaning to it.
but one thing i know.
she feels unhappy.
and i feel worse... much worse....
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
/// 8:51 PM
this is really funny la haha
the following advert is totally absurd .. haha child torture... but effective
/// 12:34 AM
WHY AM I SLACKING.
Sunday, July 19, 2009
/// 8:11 PM
who cares about harry potter and the half blood prince
when there is yongchee the first blood king.
haha dota craze.
laming off...
Saturday, July 18, 2009
/// 9:15 PM
Deleted dota finally
these few days feeling rather unhappy.
cause she dun wanna talk to me.
bah.
xueian seems to know me too well.
what a lousy shit bastard am i
Friday, July 17, 2009
/// 11:02 PM
lol i would never lick a toiletbowl even so.. haha haha whether it's true. depends on your own judgement =)
Thursday, July 16, 2009
/// 3:54 PM
Lol dota song
lol his other works. haha techno was never my type until these
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
/// 6:23 PM
omg. pro dota the last vid shot clip is lol
Friday, July 10, 2009
/// 2:12 AM
i realised something..
there seem to be some forms of connections between some people in class. and these connections almost reflect their common character. and of all these that i have seen, most are characters that are bad critics, hypocrites, selfishness, stereotypist. some don't spare a thought for others, and degrade someone because of his actions which has already happened so long ago and you leave him all alone.
some are fake friends. cause i have this very strong feeling . you wonder if people talk to or reply you willingly or unwillingly isit because he wants to build up some good relationship with you, or isit just out of courtesy, out of annoyance. cause if it is. he or she does not want to make friends with you he or she is deliberately keeping a distance from you, he or she thinks before talking to you. and ultimately you know, he can never be trusted. he contains this dangerous side of him. he don't want to bother about you and you find yourself like a fool.
i think i wanna be a sociologist in the future. or maybe a psychiatrist.
i am finally enthusiastic about learning again finally. this weekend vball interhouse. lol time to relax a little =)
Tuesday, July 07, 2009
/// 7:25 PM
essense of soccer
/// 1:14 AM
tai hao ting le.
Monday, July 06, 2009
/// 11:11 PM
i feel like punching myself..
wo de xin. hen tong.....
Saturday, July 04, 2009
/// 2:57 PM
One of my favourite rock music
kind of describing my emotions now.
Wednesday, July 01, 2009
/// 10:59 PM
i am under tremendous stress now my memory of knowledge has all disappeared left me in confusion wad have i been doing over the holidays
if this mid yr exam is my a level. i cannot imagine what i will do i even have thoughts of ending everything if i have the choice
this is bad thinking but it's what i have in mind now. i am really stressed up i am such a weakling. JC life sucks